Responsibility

Sometimes the responsibility of life seems overwhelming. There is the responsibility of home - making sure laundry is done, groceries are purchased, bills are paid and the house is clean (at least for the most part). Then there is the family responsibility - your spouse, parents, in-laws, children, siblings. Being the oldest in the family and the only girl, I feel that my brothers depend on me to take care of my mom. You know what they say about the "sandwich" generation - parenting both your children and your parents. There is the responsibility of friendship. I work hard at being a good friend as well as a good family member. Sometimes the friend and family thing kind of intertwine! The responsibility of my faith, and I know that I shouldn't feel that my faith is a responsibility, but sometimes I do feel that way. There is a certain responsibility to stay on task. I am ashamed to say that my faith sometimes waivers. I don't doubt my faith, I just worry A LOT and I guess I equate that with not having enough faith. The hardest responsibility of all however, is the responsibility of a job. Some days I can roll along and it is no problem. Other days the responsibility is overwhelming - the responsibility to bosses, co-workers, customers and all the others that you deal with on a daily basis. I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I am always trying to find a balancing point. Hummmm - just thinking out loud!

Stress

We had another beautiful weekend. We took advantage of the weather and spent most of the weekend outdoors. We got the lawn mowed, weeded the gardens and worked on the patio. We even ate all of our meals outdoors. Of course the weekend went way too fast, but it was a nice change of pace from the stress lately. I am taking Wednesday off and just doing some "me" things. When I requested the day off I said I needed a mental health day. Senior management laughed, but it truely is a mental health day. The rest of the week is full! Tomorrow we have rehearsal, Thursday is our concert and Friday Leon will head to the races. Then Saturday we have a parade in Fulda so we will have to get the band wagon out and wash it off. Maybe Sunday I can relax a little. The weeks just seem to be getting longer and the weekends shorter.

the past week has been soooooo busy. Whew! What a blurrr. this weekend however has been so nice. The weather was perfect. We got so much done outside. We worked on the lawn, the garden and the patio. I feel good. . . . . . . We really got a lot done. That is a good thing because this week is going to be very stressful!!!!!! I will make it through this though. Just need to do a little damage control.

Get r done

Well, it was a cool rainy weekend. It was definately to my advantage though. I got so much done. I got cleaning and laundry done, then I started on a big project. I got my sewing room re-organized!!! I got it done early so I started re-organizing the back area of the basement. That feels so good to get those things done. I have wanted to get my attic areas cleaned out though and I didn't get to that project. Leon has a fire department drill tomorrow night so maybe I can get started then. Especially if it is cool and rainy again. If it is nice and warm I will end up being outside working in one of the gardens. That is what summer in Minnesota is all about - being outdoors.

Tomorrow it is back to work. I have that pit feeling in the bottom of my stomach. I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. I really want to be home getting things done. I guess maybe I just need a few days of vacation. I better get it taken now, I may not have a chance to take it later.

Take a Breath

Wow, the last 2 weeks have been crazy busy! I knew we would be busy, but this was beyond my expectations. We got tons of things done in the yard so that was great. We started our community band concerts in the park. That takes 2 days a week - practice on Tuesdays and performances on Thursdays. Then there is the races of course. Leon goes down with the firetruck every Friday night. On top of that we have meetings for church and work! Whew. This weekend it is raining so I think I can take a breath and relax just a little. I got my cleaning done and now to finish laundry and get some groceries. If it stops raining, maybe we can light the fire pit again. I need to reload for another busy week next week. So many things going on there. I am worn out trying to be responsible for everything. I hope it is all worth it in the end. I guess we will see . . . . .