Today is a sad day for many reasons. All of the company is gone and that always makes me feel sad. What is left is the cleaning. I have the beds stripped and sheets washed. All of the towels are washed and put away. The floors are swept. Everything is put away where it belongs. Tomorrow I need to clean the bathrooms and scrub the floors.

But I also feel sad for another reason. I have had time to think about Roy. I am so sad that he is not with us any more. I am sad that I didn't have a chance to say good-bye. I am sad that during the last 30 years I didn't call him more. I didn't keep in contact with him more. That when he was here I didn't talk to him more. That he won't be at Kruse-a-palooza any more. I have so many regrets. sometimes I get so busy with my life that the really important things like that get forgotten. I can't let that happen again. I need to make sure to tend to the really important things - family and friends. I need to say "I love you" and "I'm sorry" more. I need to do more for others and be less selfish. I need to be a better person.

Pray for a Miracle

This isn't exactly the way I thought I would be spending the weekend. At home, alone. Leon has taken off for Texas with his brother and 2 sisters. Roy is not doing well. In fact, the doctor prety much told him there wasn't anything else they could do for him. It sounds like Roy has really rallied since all of his siblings got there. I sure hope that is a good sign. Maybe they all gave him hope and a new reason to live. Maybe he will fight harder and allow the doctors to do more. I made a prayer shawl for Roy and sent it down there with Leon. I hope the love and prayers of the family that are crocheted into that shawl will uplift him and give him renewed strenghth to fight. All we can do is pray for a miracle.

On the other hand, I have gotten a lot done around here since I am here alone. I cleaned nearly the entire house, caught up on laundry, cleaned a couple of closets, worked on a blanket and went to church. Tomorrow I am going to alter some curtains and work out in the gardens. It was a beautiful day today and is suppose to be even nicer tomorrow.