Starting to Feel Better

Well, more than a week has passed since I ahd to say goodbye to my babies. I feel a little better right now. At least I don't cry so much. I have talked them a few times on the phone and Randi and I email back and forth almost every day. It sure helps. I sent the kids a Halloween package and they got it today. Lauren was so excited about it. She called tonight to thank me for it. It was fun to talk to her.

On a different note, I think there is a chance the kids have their acerage sold. I am very excited for them if it does sell. This has been such a worry for them. Cross your fingers and say an extra prayer.

Things at work are progressing. They have set a tentative date for December 4th. It will be getting very busy now. We have a lot to do before December 4th, but it will be the days following December 4th that will be the busiest. There is a lot of training to do and there will be a lot of trying to figure out what everyone's place will be in the new comination bank. I am excited, but a little nervous. I don't really know what my place will be. I have thought about it a lot, and there are several ways this could all play out. I guess we will see!

My heart aches

Well, I am back from Michigan. The trip out there was pretty trying. The flight from Sioux Falls to Mpls was 2 hours late so we nearly missed our flight from Mpls to Kalamazoo. We were about 2 seconds from missing it! Once we got there it was nice. Randi and Travis had a few trying times during the closing of new house. They got it done on Tuesday though. The movers came on Wednesday with all of their things. It took them 6 hours to unload the semi that they had everything on. Randi and I unloaded some of the boxes to find essentials - towels, toilet paper, dishes, etc. Thursday we unloaded a bunch more boxes then we went for a sight seeing drive to see Battle Creek. Thursday night I spent a lot of time with the Logan and Lauren. I gave them a bath and read to Lauren. I couldn't help crying through the whole thing. Lauren kept saying "don't be sad Grandma. I will call you and make you pictures and things." I didn't sleep much that night. Then it was up early and off to the airport for the flight home. I cried all the way home. It was very, very hard for me. My heart aches. . . . . . . . . I am so glad Denver lives pretty close. At least we can see him almost whenever we want to.

Seriously, winter?????

I couldn't believe it when I woke up this morning and there was snow on the ground. I actually woke up to the pager. There was a one car rollover by Hadley and they were calling for the fire department and ambulance. then I heard there was a one car rollover by Jackson. They were detouring traffic off of I90 and the helicopter was going to land at the sceen. After I heard all that I got up and discovered why - an inch of snow on the ground. Yipes, it is not even the middle of October yet. Geez, it is going to be a long winter.

The movers have been out to Randi's and everything is packed up and on the road. She and the kids have been staying with us the last two nights. We headed back out there this morning to fininsh up cleaning and finding a home for all of the stuff the movers wouldn't pack. We have a little more to do tomorrow. We didn't get the fridge cleaned and we need to wash windows again.

Monday I fly out to Michigan with Randi and the kids. They close on their new house on Tuesday and the movers come on Wednesday. Randi wants to do a little painting so maybe we can get that done before the movers get there. I fly home on Friday. That is going to be so hard. I just know I will be sobbing the entire time I am on the plane.

Well, I better go start packing. . . . . .

A New Day

Yesterday was a very very hard day. It started with a message on my voice mail when I got to work in the morning. This customer was understandably frustrated, but it wasn't anything I did or the bank did. He took out all of his frunstrations on me. After his tyrade, the day just kept going down hill. I finally got home from work and had a message from Randi. They are having some difficulties with the sale of their acerage. Something new popped up yesterday. She is a very strong person, but I think that being a single parent back here and having the responsibility of all the work involved in selling the acerage are weighing hard on her. And you know when your children are stressed, then mom and dad are stressed. I didn't sleep well last night and all day today I worried about everything. We all have those kinds of days from time to time. We just have to work through them. I hope tomorrow is different. I hope things will work out with the sale of the acerage. I hope that things start looking up at work. A new day.

This and That

This past week was Homecoming at MCC. The parade was yesterday afternoon, but I didn't get a chance to see it. It was really busy at work so I was not able to go down to main street to see it. Then last night was the big game. We actually won. That was very nice.

Today was a day of doing things around the house. This morning I cleaned and put things away. This afternoon we cleaned the garage. It feels so good to get those things done. Tonight Leon is singing at the Methodist church. When that is done we will light the fire pit and have a couple of friends over.

That brings up something I have been thinking a lot about. We have had friends for a long time here in Slayton. There were actually 4 couples that did everything together. There is one of those couples who all of a sudden don't want anything to do with the rest of us. It is the husbands birthday today and they are having a house party for his birthday, but the rest of us aren't invited. This makes me very sad. I don't know what happened in the last few months that they don't want to do anything with us. It makes me feel like we are no longer good enough for them. They have a whole new circle of friends. Well, I guess I just have to live with it. Maybe some day they will tell us what happened.

Back to Reality

Well, I have had 3 months of maitenance on my lifestyle managment program. Now I have to buckle down again and get back to business. I only gained a couple of pounds while on maintenance and that is good. I am back to journaling my food intake and keeping track of my "activity". I need the meetings as well to keep me on track. I guess it is kind of like Weight Watchers because we weigh in at every meeting. We talk about the difficulties we have in our battle with weight loss and healthy lifestyles, and it is a battle! I am very good during the day. I can stay on track all day long . . .until about 8:00 p.m. Then it is like there is this overwhelming urge to eat chips and dip or popcorn or something really salty. I have to find a way to overcome those evening urges. So now here is to losing my next 10%!!!!!

Thank god for long weekends

I think everyone works with someone like this. . . . . . . this person isn't really my supervisor, but higher up in the pecking order than I am. For the sake of argument in this blog I am going to refer to this person as "she", but it could be a "he". She hasn't been at the bank much longer than I have. Actually, if you count the years I was at TCF before we were purchased by FNB, I have been there quite a bit longer than she has. I guess this person just knew who to shmooooz and how to do it, to get to the position where she is at. I don't really know how she got to where she is. I do have a great deal of contact with this person though and I try very hard to smile and be very cooperative with this person. After all, she is higher up than I am and I don't want anyone to say I am insubordinate or can't get along at work or anything. I am the kind of person who just wants to get along with everyone. I hate conflict and I really can't handle those people who think they have to put everyone else down and show their power or influence or whatever. I guess putting other people down makes them feel better. Anyway, this week I had more contact with her than usual. She always says things like "let me put this in words you would understand", or something similar to make you feel like she is talking down to you. I am not the only one she treats this way. She treats anyone with a "lower" position this way. In fact may people have quit because of her. I guess because I had more contact with her than usual this week, it made me feel worse than usual. One day I got home from work and just cried. I just couldn't take it anymore. I guess it is a good thing that we have a long weekend. I need to recharge. It will be a weekend or fun, family, friends and food. Ahhhhhh :)