Life

I guess things are moving right along with the wedding plans. Danielle has kept me up to speed on what is going on so I do feel a little better about things. I still don't feel like I am doing enough though. I suppose when it gets closer to the date I will be working my tail off.

We went to Sioux Falls yesterday and I tried to find shoes to go with my dress. I couldn't find what I really wanted. I wanted navy shoes, but I settled for silver. They were cheap enough, and that is good, but they have spike type heals and that is not going to be good when walking on the lawn. We also got a few things for the engagement party and a few other things we can't get around here.

Today it was back to work. It wasn't a terrible day, but still busy. One of these days I will get caught up! It was a cool, dreary, rainy day - AGAIN!!!! We have had several of those days right in a row again. I am tired of this. I NEED SUN!!!!!

A Rainy Day

Hummm - another rainy day. I don't mind. At least all of my gardens are getting watered. That is a great thing! But, it also means that the weeds will start growing again!!!!!! :( I just hope the rain quits by tomorrow. A couple of friends and I are going shopping for my "mother of the groom" dress and the fabric for the quilt. It will be fun to go shopping with friends. We haven't done that for quite a long time. I also really need to find this dress. I only have a month before the wedding. I am not totally sure what is going on with the wedding plans. Danielle has told me a few things, but I don't feel like I am doing enough to help.

You know, I am sitting here thinking what a long week it has been. We had Monday off, but that just means that the rest of the week is really hectic. AND IT WAS! I spent Tuesday getting caught up on my reports, then Wednesday did interviews for the new teller position, they Thursday I had a VIP trip and then yesterday it was back to trying to catch up from being gone. Man am I tired!

Hurricane Winds

Wow, another day of hurricane strength winds. It is tearing up my gardens and hanging plants. Also a very bad hair day!!!! Yipes, when will it end????? I can't take this any more. It has been warm out though. I spent all weekend in the gardens getting everything weeded and nearly everything mulched. Maybe tomorrow when isn't quite so windy I can finish the mulching.

The wedding plans are under way. I have been searching the internet for a dress to wear. I have come up with a couple of possibilities. I am not totally sold on any of them though. I think we will have to have a girls shopping day and go to Sioux Falls and find something!!!! Any excuse to go shopping!!! :)

Well, back to cleaning and laundry!

Event Filled Weekend

Wow, it has been an event filled weekend. Friday night we went out for supper with friends to celebrate Leon's birthday. it was very nice - especially since it seemed like it had been such a long week at work. While we were at the restaurant I got a text from Denver. It was a picture of a woman's hand with a diamond ring on it. I was so excited. What wonderful news. I texted Denver back but he did not respond so I called him. I had a hard time hearing him so I asked where he was. He said they were in a bar in Volga celebrating with Danielles mom and sister. Well, I gotta say I was a little bit hurt that they would be out celebrating with out having called to tell us first. But I just let it go. Anyway, I waited until Saturday and called Denver back. He said they actually got engaged on Wednesday, but he wanted to give Danielle a few days to tell the people she wanted to tell before he told us. Hummm. I wondered why that would affect us, but again I didn't say anything. Then he put Danielle on the phone. Her first comment was "I am glad he finally told you guys. Okay, now I am really feeling hurt. Why . . . . . anyway, I am trying very hard not to let this bother me. It is a very trivial thing, but I still feel hurt. Not enough to say anything. Just my own problem. I will never say anything to anyone about this, but I am allowed to feel the way I feel. It is what it is! Now on to wedding plans.

Mother's Day

It was a very nice Mother's Day weekend. Denver and Danielle came home on Saturday. We had lunch together and they gave me a wonderful gift from them and Randi and Travis and the kids. The weather was crappy so we couldn't be outside oranything, but it was wonderful to have them home. Then on Sunday we had pot luck at my mom's for lunch. It was nice to get together with mom and Chuck and Laurie. After that we headed to Millie's for awhile. That was nice as well. We got to visit with Gene & Karen and Norm & Brenda while we were there. When we got home from there, I did a few things around the house and then just vegged in my chair the rest of the night. While I was cocooned in my chair I did a lot of thinking. I thought about all of the people and things I have in my life and how lucky I am. I have a very small house, but I love it. I love the cocoon feeling that my house gives me. I have kids who have turned out so well and are so thoughtful. I have a husband who loves and respects me - even if he is crabby sometimes. I have family (both mine and Leon's) whom I love to be around. They all make me feel loved and needed. After thinking about all of this I was suddenly hit with an overwhelming feeling of contentment and blessing. I hope all Mom's have a chance to experience that feeling of love.

Today is a sad day for many reasons. All of the company is gone and that always makes me feel sad. What is left is the cleaning. I have the beds stripped and sheets washed. All of the towels are washed and put away. The floors are swept. Everything is put away where it belongs. Tomorrow I need to clean the bathrooms and scrub the floors.

But I also feel sad for another reason. I have had time to think about Roy. I am so sad that he is not with us any more. I am sad that I didn't have a chance to say good-bye. I am sad that during the last 30 years I didn't call him more. I didn't keep in contact with him more. That when he was here I didn't talk to him more. That he won't be at Kruse-a-palooza any more. I have so many regrets. sometimes I get so busy with my life that the really important things like that get forgotten. I can't let that happen again. I need to make sure to tend to the really important things - family and friends. I need to say "I love you" and "I'm sorry" more. I need to do more for others and be less selfish. I need to be a better person.

Pray for a Miracle

This isn't exactly the way I thought I would be spending the weekend. At home, alone. Leon has taken off for Texas with his brother and 2 sisters. Roy is not doing well. In fact, the doctor prety much told him there wasn't anything else they could do for him. It sounds like Roy has really rallied since all of his siblings got there. I sure hope that is a good sign. Maybe they all gave him hope and a new reason to live. Maybe he will fight harder and allow the doctors to do more. I made a prayer shawl for Roy and sent it down there with Leon. I hope the love and prayers of the family that are crocheted into that shawl will uplift him and give him renewed strenghth to fight. All we can do is pray for a miracle.

On the other hand, I have gotten a lot done around here since I am here alone. I cleaned nearly the entire house, caught up on laundry, cleaned a couple of closets, worked on a blanket and went to church. Tomorrow I am going to alter some curtains and work out in the gardens. It was a beautiful day today and is suppose to be even nicer tomorrow.