What a productive weekend!!! We got all of our fall "chores" done on Saturday. Cut all the perennials down, mowed lawn, got all the leaves taken care of. Ialso did a lot of chopping. And cooking. The tomatoes, peppers and cucumbers all need to have something done with them. Through all of that I had a lot of time to reflect on the week. In the end I came to the uglyrealization that I am a pretty selfish person. I am both embarrassed and humiliated. I have a goal now. I need to be concious of this as part of my effort to be abetted person. To day was better. We had the grandbabbies all day so mommy and daddy could keep combings. There is still a lot of corn to get out and the weatherman is talking about a storm front coming in tomorrow night. And now to get ready for a very busy week ahead.

Tonight is a very unusual evening. I am actually home. No meetings or anything. Along with that, I am home by myself. That doesn't happen very often either. Tnhis has been a very stressful week at work. Today I had a continuing ed class though. While generally I don't get too excited about continuing ed, today it was just what the doctor ordered. It was wonderful yo get away from the normal routine of work. And now I think it is time for a glass of wine.

this myfirst time trying to do this from my Kindle. It is very different tron doing it from my computer. I hope it works! I have just been thinking about all of the things I have in my life. I am so grateful for all those wonderful things. I am healthy an if you have your health you have everything. I just had all of my wellness checks done. I had a full pannel lab done as well as a mammogram, ekg, stress test and colonoscopy. Everything came back as okay. Even my cholesterol is fine. You know what they say - you can buy medical care, but you ca.n 't buy good health.

It has been a short week for me, but seems like it has taken forever.  I have to work tomorrow morning, but I don't mind.  I get a lot of catch up stuff done when I work a Saturday morning.  I am pretty excited that we are going up to see Denver and Danielle on Sunday.  We haven't seen them for quite awhile.  I should also get out to the garden and pull out all the plants.  It froze last night so the garden is done.  I don't mind though.  I have done a ton of canning and feezing this fall.  Corn, green beans, salsa, tomato sauce and chili starter.  Now I can get back to my quilting.  I love quilting almost as much as I do gardening. 

Well, Leon is working late tonight since harvest is in full swing.  They need to have someone at the shop until 8:00 every night durning harvest.   Harvest should be done in a week or so, so he may only have a few more late nights to work.  I always get a little worried during harvest.  The farmers are so anxious to get the crop out that sometimes they take shortcuts that they shouldn't and there are accidents.  Praying for a safe harvest. 

Well, it once again time for me to do a little blogging.  I feel a need to put some of my feelings into written form.  Some things have happened recently that got me started thinking.  Thinking about my life in general.  Am I the person who I think I am or do I have a distorted view of who I am?  Am I the person God wants to me, or do I just think I am.  Hummm. . . .  I have done a lot of "soul serching" the past few weeks.  I am so not the person God wants me to be.  I am so not the person I thought I was.  I am humbled and somewhat humiliated at some parts of my life.  There is many moments I wish I could do over and be a better person.  But I can't dwell on the things I cannot go back and  change.  What I can do is go forward and change me.  Change how I function and change how I treat people.  Change how I react to situations.  And most of all change how I see myself.  Beginning today I vow to be a better person.  A better wife, a better mother and grandmother, a better friend and better co-worker.  But most of all I want to make a difference in other people's lives. 

Once again, I can't believe it has been so long since I last posted.  A lot has happened!  In June Mildred passed away.  It seems like it went very fast!  She was the glue that held the Kruse family together.  We were all together for 5 days to grieve and remember.  It was only about 2 weeks before Kruse-a-palooza so I wasn't sure if everyone would come back for it or not.  Thankfully they all came back.  Kruse-a-palooza is such an important event for me.  In my job I have seen so many families go their separate ways and loose touch with each other.  I have also seen families torn apart.  I sure don't want that to happen.  In the end, family is all you have. 

Anyway, Kruse-a-palooza happened in July.  Nearly everyone was here.  It gets very hard to pull off Kruse-a-palooza as the years go on.  First of all we have a lot of special diets now.  We have a diabetic, a vegitarian, gluten free, peanut allergies, and those that don't eat pork.  That does limit the meals being made.  And there are so many different interests as far what do, so entertaining is getting more difficult as well.  I try to plan a few things, but sometimes it doesn't work.  In the end we all just want to be together and visit anyway.  Love it!

August was a blurr.  So much going on at work.  I went in early and stayed late most of the time.  I was pretty much in survival mode most of the time.  some of the most stressful times since the weeks following our merger. 

Also our daughter whos is 6 months pregnant is have problems.  Her blood pressure is out of control again.  This happened with her first pregnancy as well.  She is on total bed rest.  That is hard when you have 2 little ones at home.  I take the kids when I can and I made up a bunch of meals and froze them.  Then she can just pop something in the oven for a meal.  Along with that the garden produce is all needing to be tended to.  We were able to can our stuff together until the doctor put her on bed rest.  Since then I have canned ours as well as hers.  I think we have canned over 150 pints of salsa, tomato sauce and chili starter.  there will be more as well because the tomatoes are not all done yet.  it will be so tasty this winter!!!!!

And now I have a week of vacation!  Yay!!!!  I had a week earlier, but it was during Kruse-a-palooza.  That time is always spent either cleaning to get ready for Kruse-a-palooza, in the middle of Kruse-a-palooza, or cleaning up when it is done.  This vacation I hope will be for me.  Today I just putzed around.  Took the kids for awhile and did a few odd things around the house.  Tomorrow I am going to start cleaning out the attic spaces.  They have not been cleaned for 20 years.  Who know what I will find in there!!!!!!  Be afraid - be very afraid!!!!!!!

24 Day Challange

Okay, the 24 day challenge is done.  I guess I did pretty well.  So far I have lost 10 pounds.  I know that some of that was just water weight, but I am okay with how well I did.  Today should be a challenge however.  We having some friends over to grill out this afternoon.  I have made healthy foods, but I am not sure what everyone else is bringing.  I know I will be tempted to eat some of the less healthy foods.  I just need to muster up the will power!!!!  I am in this for the long haul so I need to stay focused.