I Tried

I tried to make it through the week. I really did try. But yesterday I lost it. I tried to stay in my office as much as I could, but it didn't work very well. I had such a hard time maintaining my composure. I am not really sure why. I know it has a lot to do with the amount of stress in my life right now. I could see the tellers out there whispering and looking my direction. I know they were whispering about me. I guess I was having a pity party for myself. Just plain feeling sorry for myself. I didn't talk to anyone about it though. I have to wrestle with some internal demons and figure out if I am just imagining it, or if management reeally is taking advantage of me. I don't want to say anything until I get it all worked out in my head. Anyway, by the end of the day I asked the branch president if I could have some time off. He said it would be fine. He wondered what I was upset about. I just couldn't talk to him about it yet. I hope by Monday when I go back, things will be better and I can visit with him for a few minutes. In the mean time I have had a good day so far. I have cleaned and done laundry and worked a lot on the quilt. All very theraputic for me. Tomorrow I am going to finish cleaning and then it is girls weekend. We are heading for Sioux Falls for some "retail therapy". I know I will feel better after that!!!!!

Another Weekend

It is just unbelievable to me just how quickly a weekend can go by. I think it is mostly because the past week was so extremely stressful. Logan had another acute asthma attack and ended up back at the doctor. Lat time the doctor sent him home with a nebulizor. This time he not only has to use the neb 4 times a day, but now they have to put steroids in the neb 2 times a day. Poor little thing. I so remember those days with Denver. Only back then, you had to go to the hospital for the neb treatments. I sure hope he grows out of it. I wish I lived closer so I could be there to help.

It was pretty stressful at work too. I guess my job is going to be changing. That is what management tells me anyway. In order for that to happen, somthing has to come off of my plate. The things they are talking about taking off of my plate are pretty controversial. At least that is what they tell me. Nobody will take on those duties. My questions is, since when do they have a choice. For me it has always been that you do what they tell you to. I did not know you could refuse to do something. Anyway, now they are trying to figure out what to do with these duties. I feel like I am being blamed for this by my co-workers. I did not ask to have my job changed, I was just told. And actually when I talked to one of the senior management team, I asked if I could know what was going on. He said they were not prepared to tell me yet. I asked if I could be in on the "discussion" about it. He said he didn't even know that. Hummmmmmmm

I just feel like every aspect of my life is in flux right now. I sure hope that this week things will work themselves out. I am leaving it all in God's hands right now. That is all I can do!

the Big Dig

this past weekend is the time I had set for the big dig. My perennial garden had not had much attention since I planted it 8 - 10 years ago. The grasses and weeds were starting to over run the entire garden. So after lunch on Saturday I started. I dug up all of the perennials and put them on a tarp. I had hoped for about 50 degree weather, but it was in the 80's. The sweat was running off of me. On top of the sweat, those little tiney black bugs were out. After 4 1/2 hours I had everything out. Then all of the ground got spaded over. That was enough for one day! Besides which, we wanted to stop and watch the Twins. We lit the fire pit and turned the TV so we could see it from the fire pit. Needless to say, the Twins did NOT look good. They lost and are now out of the World series hunt. Sunday afternoon it was back to the perennial garden. Leon tilled it for me and then I started putting things back. I broke up the clumps of perennials and put just some of everything back. It looks great again. And even better a friend came and took all the left overs. I hope she enjoys the plants.

Today, it was back to reality - work. When I got there I could not get into 2 of the main programs I use all day. Soon I also realized the phones were not working. Yipes! What a start to the week. Because it was Columbus Day we were not very busy. I think people thought we would be closed. We may pay for that tomorrow. Wednesday I head to Springfield to do training. I hope that goes well. It could be a looooooong week!

A Big Week

I sure has been a productive week. Monday night we came home from Michigan. I was very sad as always, but it was good to get home. Except that we came home to a wet basement. When we left the prior Thursday morning it was pouring rain. It had actually rained all night long. By the time we left we had gotten over 5 inches. But, the basement was dry and the city crew had beenout and started pumping the manholes. We thought we were home free so we left for MIchigan. It took us 6 hours to drive out of the rain. by the time we got to Michigan I had contacted a friend and they checked the basement. Bless their hearts, they found out it was wet so they went and got a shop vac and got it all dried out. But when we got home on Monday night, it smelled very musty in the house. Tuesday, after a very hectic day at work, I went and rented a carpet shampooer. I spent 3 hours shampooing, but it smelled a lot better when I was done. The rest of the work week was spent catching up from being gone, training a new employee in Fulda, and getting yet another project completed. Friday night we went to the Homecoming Game here in town. I don't know many of the kids out there anymore, but it is still fun to be at high school sporting events. Saturday morning I worked. That is okay. I always get a lot of catch up work done on Saturday mornings. This particular Saturday morning was very very busy so I helped the tellers, but I still got a lot of stuff done. Saturday afternoon we worked in the yard. We got the vegetable garden totally cleaned out and the remains taken out to the tree dump. They have a compost pile out there that you can put garden waste in. It was kind of sad that the garden is done, because I love to be able to run out to the garden and get things for a meal. ON the other hand I am tired of canning salsa, tomatoes, and green beans and dicing onion and peppers. Today I spent putzing and cleaning. I did a lot of cleaning I have not had a chance to do the last few weeks. I dusted, scrubbed floors, cleaned bathrooms, etc. I feel like I have gotten a lot done! It is a really good feeling. Now, tomorrow is Monday so I have to get ready to do it all again.