A lot thinking

You know, I still don't know what is wrong with me. I have spent many hours trying to figure things out. Today was a little better though. At least I wasn't in melt down mode all day. I was able to finish my projects and get things done. Still not happy inside though. I didn't cry all day, but I could feel the demon called depression heavy on my heart. It rained all day so that may have been part of the depression thing . . . . . . . Tomorrow my boss will be in meetings with senior management all day. I am guessing they will have an opportunity to "discuss" what ever changes they are considering for my job. I am hoping that some news will come my way on Friday then. I really need to know what they have in mind. The not knowing is so hard and so unfair.