I didn't sleep very well last night. Once again I found myself out on the couch watching Tv at 3:00 a.m.There was just so many things running through my mind. I just couldn't turn off all the thinks in my brain. I have been told that it has a lot to do with being post -menopausal. I must have a lot of hormones messing up my sleep patterns or something. What ever if is, I wish it would go away. I don't sleep and I worry about everything!!!!! The weatherman was right about the weather today. It snowed most of the day. Add that yo the 55 mile an hour winds and it was a good old Minnesota winter storm. After church I made lunch and then spent the rest of the day quilting. I was in heaven. I was able to Gettysburg quilt too donethag I was working on. Now I just have to get a batting and backing yo finish it off. And now it is time for anode glass of red wine!

It's another winter day in Minnesota. Right now it is relatively warm outside. The sun was shining all day and there wasn't much for wind. Love it. We went up to the Family Fair at school for awhile and watched Logan's preschool class do some songs and finger plays. It was very cute. And Logan did a good job of doing the singing and actions when he was suppose to. On Thursday Lauren is going to a little Rebels cheerleading camp. Then on Friday night at halftime of the varsity basketball game they are going to perform. I am so glad that Randi and Travis live close enough that we can attend the kids programs and such. Now tomorrow is going to be a different story. We are currently under a blizzard warning for tomorrow. We are predicted to get 2 to 4 inches of snow and 35 to 55 mile per hour winds. Lovely!!!! I guess I will just hunker down in my sewing room and do some more quilting. I have a quilt and a baby blanket to get done. I usually have a few baby blankets made up so when someone around here has a baby, I have something ready. Ya, and then it is back to work on Monday . . . . Why do the weekends go so quickly?

Okay so maybe this whole stress in my life is because I am a control freak. Maybe I stress more because I can't control the outcome of certain situations. Or because the outcome of certain situations are unknown. I don't stress when I know what is going on and know the outcome. You know I really don't want to control situations,w I think I stress becase I don't kn ow how things are going to turn out. I also go back to my assumption that I don't. Have enough faith. I have "dinky" faith. If I had enough faith I would know that God is taking care of all of this for me. So more prayer and a little Zoloft. That is the answer.

Why does everything happen at once? First the car starts acting up. the gages on the dashboard are all screwed up. The gas gage shows full one time and 1/2 empty the next time you start it. Then the heat gage started acting up. The gage will show the car is hot one time and cold 5 minutes later. At least the car still works. Next the pickup starts acting up. the heater fan only works once in awhile. And once in awhile the lights don't work! Next, our sewer system decides to give us fits. It backed up into the room with our freezer. YUCK!!!!! And to top it off, the furnace is not fixed yet either. I just feel like everything in my life is falling apart right now. Fast forward to work this week. My boss was over on Thursday and met with me for over an hour. Once again they want me to change the direction of my job. This time I am really not happy with where things are going. They want me to move to a different office and everything. this all is just too much for my poor brain to handle right now. I have gone back to not sleeping at night and having anxiety attacks during the day. I am a mess! I just hope the next few weeks things will work themselves out so I can sleep at night.

The after holiday blues have set in. After all the excitement of Christmas and New Years, it is back to a blah routine of work. Oh well, I guess you have to have the blah routine to make the holidays more fun. But was it hard to go back to work today! I just didn't want to go to work today. I think part of it was the the post holiday blahs and part of it was the weather. I woke up this morning to -45 wind chills. Burrrr. Governor Dayton had called off school in all of Minnesota. That is the first time since about 1997 that that has happened. and on top of the weather, the furnace isn't working correctly. I came home at noon and again tonight and it was 57 in the house. I had to go down both times and hit the reset button to get the furnace to kick in. I hope my husband called the repair man! Or I may wake up to ice sicles on my nose tomorrow morning. Tonight should be quiet around the house though. A chance to rest and relax. Just gotta keep the furnace going.