I guess I am having an anxiety attack again. I really really hate this feeling. I can't think, I can't sit still, I can't rationalize, and I am having trouble even making simple decisions. How do I get past this one? There wasn't any one thing that happened this weekend, but I am filled with anxiety and depression. One minute I want to cry and curl up on the couch and the next minute I can't sit in a chair. I haven't had one of these "episodes" for quite awhile. I thought I was past it. And then it comes roaring back! Okay, so part of this comes from my intense desire to please everyone - family, friends, co-workers - everyone. I am trying to get everyone on my side together for Easter (cuz we all know that Easter is my holiday). We can't seem to find a day and time to work for everyone. I think I am just going to have to make the call on when to have it and someone is going to be unhappy. Another part of this could be that it is Sunday and the feeling of dread always floods over me on Sundays. I don't know, I just don't know. My brain is fuzzy and black. I need to do something or talk to someone. I just don't know . . . . . . .