Oh my gosh! The demons are back and back with a vengence! I am in melt down mode. I can't control my emotions right now. I am shaking. I can't sit still. My brain will not stop. I thought maybe being by myself this morning while I was cleaning and doing laundry would help. Not only did it not help, I think it made it worse. AAHHH!!! Then Travis came over with the grandkids. Finally, some relief. Just having them around and interacting with them helped. It is amazing what your grandchildren can do for you. They are gone now and the feelings have crept back in. I am trying to keep really busy so I don't think about things. I will have to take sleeping pills again tonight just so I can sleep. that will be the 3rd night in a row. I hate taking them, but sometimes it is the only way to get relief. I don't know how much longer I can do this. I hate these anxiety attacks!!!! they are terrible. I keep praying for peace to come over me. I hope it comes soon . . . . . .