I Tried

I tried to make it through the week. I really did try. But yesterday I lost it. I tried to stay in my office as much as I could, but it didn't work very well. I had such a hard time maintaining my composure. I am not really sure why. I know it has a lot to do with the amount of stress in my life right now. I could see the tellers out there whispering and looking my direction. I know they were whispering about me. I guess I was having a pity party for myself. Just plain feeling sorry for myself. I didn't talk to anyone about it though. I have to wrestle with some internal demons and figure out if I am just imagining it, or if management reeally is taking advantage of me. I don't want to say anything until I get it all worked out in my head. Anyway, by the end of the day I asked the branch president if I could have some time off. He said it would be fine. He wondered what I was upset about. I just couldn't talk to him about it yet. I hope by Monday when I go back, things will be better and I can visit with him for a few minutes. In the mean time I have had a good day so far. I have cleaned and done laundry and worked a lot on the quilt. All very theraputic for me. Tomorrow I am going to finish cleaning and then it is girls weekend. We are heading for Sioux Falls for some "retail therapy". I know I will feel better after that!!!!!