Saturday, January 17, 2009

I don't know . . . .

I don't know . . . . The dark cloud of depression seems to be taking over once again. I feel like crying all the time. I feel an overwhelming sense of dread - a feeling like I won't ever . . . . I don't know, I just don't know. Just a dark feeling that is taking over my brain and my soul. Maybe it is the cloudy days that we have had. I am drowning and can't save myself. I just want to curl up under a blanket and cacoon myself in my room. What can I do to overcome this terrible feeling. I don't know. I just don't know . . . . . . . . . . the tears just come.
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  1. JessieJanuary 17, 2009 at 3:31 PM

    Lorie-Hey, we all feel that way, if people say they don't, they're lying!! We have so many pressures but on us daily that how can we NOT feel that way. I know that I live my life daily that way--I just have learned how to cope. I've thought many times about getting some drugs for it, but I'm stubborn, and honestly I guess I don't want to admit to a doctor that I need help. So, I just get by--everyday! In the past it cost me my marriage, not because Doyle couldn't take it, but because I couldn't. I vowed this time not to let it take over, but it is a struggle. I wish we lived closer to each other--I really think that we could be good friends to each other and a support for one another. Not that I don't consider you a friend, but when you only see one another once a year or so, it's hard to really trust and confide in each other. Just remember that you're not alone in your feelings and I'm here if you want to talk(on the phone, not internet). Also remember that I love ya!!

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  2. JessieJanuary 17, 2009 at 5:02 PM

    Lorie, I shouldn't say not over the internet, just not over our blogs. E-mail me if you need to or want to.

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  3. Lorie's StoryJanuary 17, 2009 at 7:36 PM

    You are right, we have a lot of pressures on in this day and age. So much stress!!!I envy that you are strong enough to get through these times. Last time I went through a bad session of this I ended up on Zoloft for a couple of years. I weaned myself off of it about 18 months ago. I was doing really well for awhile. I sure wish you did live close. I think we would be very best friends. I agree it is very hard to do that when we don't see each other often. thanks for your concern. You will never know how much that means to me. I can't talk to the girls at work cuz I am their boss. I can't talk to my kids cuz I really don't want them to know or worry about me. Leon knows that this happens to me sometimes, he just can't understand it. He just sort of keeps his distance when it happens. He doesn't really know what to do or say. thanks again for caring.

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